Why Be Good When Your Best Isn't Good Enough?

Wow, I really don't have a lot to write about. I am leading a boring life right now. I am at home for reading week. It has definately been an interesting week so far. I feel like I have no time for myself. Oh well, these things happen. Maybe tomorrow night I will be able to relax. I have been trying to spend more time thinking and spending time with God. It hasn't really worked too well. I am starting to realize that my family is somewhat disfunctional. It has been really hard to be at home. This is the place where there is so much oppression. I don't know what it is about here...it just seems to oppressive. I am having a hard time dealing with it though because I know that I am going to be living here over the summer. I really love me family but its like I can't seem to get away from the discouragement. I don't know what to do about it. I dunno...maybe things will change. I keep thinking it will but it always seems to be worse. Do I have too high of expectations of them?? I don't think I do. I mean all I do is ask for a little respect and some encouraging words. Is that too much to ask?? Do I need to defend myself and my calling all the time? I'm just frustrated I guess. I am told all the time that I shouldn't be in bible college becuase I never show interest in what I do and my marks don't show it and stuff like that. grrr! I feel like I can never do anything right. If I get B's it should have been A's. just that kind of thing. I try hard in school. I am frustrated that I can't seem to get above a 2.3 GPA. I just feel like giving up somedays. Oh well..life goes on.