Why Be Good When Your Best Isn't Good Enough?

Well my computer works (sort of), my job is good, I love my classes (and now for the challenge - learning to love my teachers), and friends are amazing... just need to remember that they are people with emotions... :S.

Lent is approaching (Wednesday) and I'm struggling as to what I should give up? Addictions I have a few: caffein, my computer, sarcasm, and talking. I'm strongly considering sarcasm and caffein for 40 days. That would take care of 2 of the greatest parts that work against me - a drug and a communication hindrance. My goal, go without coffee, pop & other caffein items until I have this under control again and have eliminated it as an addictive property but a choice in my life - 21 day plus 19 to figure out caffein; With sarcasm its the chance to look at how I communicate and closer analyse my speach patterns. The overall goal is to develop a stronger understanding of God as I fast from those 2 parts of my life.

I faced my first hard choice as I chose not to see Ghost Rider a film I grew up reading the comics for. I also had to decifer my need for computers versus my wants for computers and have set some stronger boundaries realizing the people will always come first in this place. I just started reading a book by Henri Nouwen on helping people - I love Henri Nouwen's biography as he was an established Priest who taught at Yale & Harvard who gave up the status to become a chaplain at L'Arche Daybreak a community for mentally handicapped people who would NEVER understand let alone appreciate his credentials.

This is one week since I first started the pondry of "what is my life?" and "how to I want it to look?". The findings are small, but the change is there. I made some other commitments like focussing more on my studies and doing more actions to reflect why I am at school. So far this week I've found tonnes of distractions that when I have passed by them left me wondering if I should have engaged and could I have made a difference or were they just as I treated them, a distraction and taking me away from what I'm trying to accomplish.

I still don't know "where to go from here?", but I am still looking and still excited about the process. Your thoughts?