Why Be Good When Your Best Isn't Good Enough?

I reached the wall below my window today with only the Tupperware crypt as I call it left. I never thought I`d ever see floor there again. Now with the 2nd and 3rd boxes full of junk and 2 full boxes of clothing to sort through, I see the chance to reduce what I never needed in the first place. I`m downsizing the wires I have so many of plus miscellaneous tech nicknack's which are taking up space in my computer drawer. I even found a box I`m sending to a friend thats value is undecided but will benefit him more than me.

This all leads me to ask why and how did I get here in the first place. I know I`ve said it before, but I already downsized twice to move and yet here I am reducing the same or more than the total of those two times. There are three stacks of papers I`ve put aside so many times they need to be organized by filing or shredding. I have car parts in my apartment too; I think I failed to mention this. I`m shaking my head realizing how stupid it was not to get rid of what I didn`t want in the first place. Could it be my wants where they needed to be in the first place; could it be I was so distracted by other things my wants caused me to cling to what ever I could and my apathy kept me from doing anything about it.

Well here we are going on 3am and I want to get the next box, but I`ve come to realize I also need to do the other things important to me. Things such as sleep, take my pills & vitamins, eat healthy (I`ve already shed over 15 of the Christmas pounds), exercise (something I`m dreadfully sloppy about doing consistently, especially simple things like stretches). Tomorrow I`ll start the work that is set before me, fixing my eyes on my reward for wanting to work hard, wanting to move forward, and wanting to shed encumbrances. Its in my moving forward I find more energy not growing weary or lose heart.